Gender?

I am a Trans|Gendered female.
(or Transexual .. | TG, TS whatever you feel like labeling me)

- no i do not go shouting it from the roof tops and yes when ask, am i
male or female, i answer female * so yeah, when A LOT of you have met me
online yes i answer * Female (FemCon-for all my TF buds out there) *
and for all of you out there that have known me through out my childhood or during High School < think back... lots of signs >

My pictures - they have not been altered in any way *
and from the moment any of you have met me and to this day * physically and
personality. I have not been on any hormones and yet my body keeps
becoming more femmine as i grow older.

+ I am who I am (and always have been)

/

* for the 1st 6 years of my life, i grew up in a very very Southern Baptist household.
after my Dad dis-owned me and my brother, we were left being raised by my mom
who's tasted in men well, lets just say "Texas Redneck" is about the
nicest thing i can say - she was married 7 times (5 different guys - one
of them was my dad).

So from the age of 7 till i left home at 18 * i grew up in this type of environment, struggling with my own
"gender" issues. Never once in my life have i questioned my attraction
to Women (and my dis attraction to men) *

I'm sure many of G/F from High School could tell many of many of tragic schitzo mental issues
i had and we delt with *** mmmmm ** go figured.

some time around 16, my Mom and Grandpa "found out" - as I had been hiding my "female
side" as much as possible (as you can image growing up in the
home/environment as i did) . i cam up with some kind of shitty cover
story, but i had been "slowly coming out - since 7th grade" just behind
closed doors.

It wasn't until the end 1999 that things went ugly for me
i had a break down, i was on the verge of looking into getting chemically castrated, i was loosing it
**** then i met Tina (May~2000), she was the 1st person who was understanding of what was going on inside me -

+ think about this:
our children call my their mom - well - mom, because she's the one who biologicly gave birth to them and as for me,

i'm called *Dad* (go figure-irony - DarkAngelDru) * and i am their biological father.

-> fast forward // our 1st son is born (many more detail there), 6-9months
later after that he's about 1/ish or so, get the picture * runs into
the living room with our Daughters "Ariel, the little mermaid doll, and
said "This is my Daddy"

another year or so later (he was about 2 1/2) we were sitting at the mall
he was seeing all the other kids walking around with their parents / Dads -
my son looks at me - "That's their (the other kids) Dads?" - i said yes
- he moved closer hugged me and said "Your my Dad"
*

Fast forward today - for education purposes we send our kids to a top notch private catholic school |||
so you can image the looks, teasing or what not my kids get - .. but they don't

my daughter is now in 8th grade * her friends teaser her about * hey is
that your mom or your dad ... her Biological dad is very much active in
her life and the Godfather of my boys so .. *heh* she's a tuff kid

my boys are so loved by their teachers and friends (not to mention all of them do very well academically in school) i take my boys to their friends bday functions, participate in class functions
the parents on a whole don't say a whole lot - i get the odd look every now
again as my son yells out "Daddy" real lout and gives me a big hug

Daughter (Tahlia - 13) is a 6th queue Brown belt in Universal Karate , now on her schools cheer squad .

Son (Morgan - 8) is the most eclectic child with the passion for the piano,
numbers .. *hehehe* and Transformers

Son (Max - 7) the most boy-boy you will meet. tough, aggressive * doesn't cry unless you hurt his pride - loves to cook,
paint his toe nails, Tap dance and Metal !!
/

i have lived this way for over ten years, and i do not need therapy to show the
world i am serious. despite what my kids mother tells me (i have emails after, after emails contradicting her previous support and that i need to be "a man") I am me. I go out, work, to my kids activities
and birthday parties, as I am.
people can be dam as what they think.

- i am a Woman - i am Me - and i will be Free

~ Jacquelynn DM